Thursday, September 16, 2010

Teeter Totter

So i feel like i have been on one of these for the past few months. I have been going "back and forth " on the subject of having another kid.... Matt and I both know we want another one but its just hard to decide WHEN is the right time... Hunter is 3 and will be 4 in Feb. and Taggart just turned 2 in August. So i definitely have my hands full , but i really don't want a HUGE gap between the kids.... especially if its a boy because I WILL NOT have more than 3 boys:) I also am almost 5 years older than Danielle and although now you would never notice ... growing up we hardly had anything in common, I was just bossy....and she was just annoying. ANYWAYS, I am sure all you moms out there have gone through something similar so I need some advice. I know that every person is different..... I do have to add that I already made a HUGE step by taking out my IUD in July... I had been praying about it and knew that I needed to be ABLE to at least get pregnant if it was "meant to be" and that wouldn't happen with that in. SO that was one big step already. But i am just debating on timing... Matt wants to wait until the beginning of next year to start "TALKING ABOUT IT" and he said if it happens before then (by some chance) then he is ready for one... but i really don't want to have a baby in the PEAK of sick season ( we all know my kids track record with RSV) so i am torn.... I had to finally write down my frustrations so i do not drive myself crazy with my slight case of OCD i have seemed to acquired. You are all probably reading this thinking I am crazy and I probably am....Oh well